When I complained again, my doctor suggested that I was actually bi-polar and this was the cause of my manic behaviour. I’m 35 years old, and I would know if I was bi-polar. I’ve been in counseling before, I’ve been on anti-depressents before, and THIS was never an issue. I took myself off my medicine, and except for a medication induced migraine (one that took me going on a anti-seizure medicine to control) I have never felt better. My mind has healed, and without the migraines that I was experiencing before I went on the SSRI’s and while I was on them, as well as the purposeful reduction in stress in my life, I feel like a new person.

In my case, going off my medicine was the best thing I could have done for myself. If left up to my doctor, he would have continued to add more and more medicine to try and control my moods. This is why I believe that therapy and exercise and diet modification should be used BEFORE the introduction of drugs. My doctor told me when he put me on the medicine that I wouldn’t need therapy or any lifestyle changes because of how wonderful the new drugs are. I now see that he believed the hype of the drug rep and was not using a common sense approach to medicine that would have been much more beneficial to me.

Some people truly need anti-depressants, for the rest of us though, simple lifestyle adjustments and exercise may be the best cure. In my case I was just simply stressed out and my mind couldn’t take anymore stress. Having someone objective to look at my life with me and come up with a gameplan to help me reduce my stress would have been great, instead I did it on my own, and thankfully, learned a great lesson.

When a doctor first suggested anti-depressants, I was too sick to argue. I needed to feel better. I took the medication in increasing dosages with all types of weird side effects for three+ years.

Once I “decided” to stop taking the medication, it was a combination of good and bad arguments, and not all of them rationally based. That of course is hindsight talking. I am still mostly opposed to drugs for me. I think one of the biggest things that tipped the no more drugs scale was the artificially induced moods that only the drug could provide and the necessity for increasing dosages to do so. Those moods not only apparent to me but those close to me. And they often had a bigger price, evidence of organ damage and of course this seemingly endless dependency.

It is a difficult place to be, to take or not to take. And once one is enmeshed, it is even more difficult to continue or decide not to.

I’d like to believe in the wisdom that this very intricate system we inhabit does in fact have the ability to heal itself as long as I keep working at it and with the aspects that need healing, without drugs as regulators that can screw up a bunch of other workings in the process.